2002-10-21 - 5:47pm

P.Y.T. ~ A Girl Can Dream

When I was child, the story would say, Somebody will sweep you off your feet someday. That's what I hope's would happen with you, More than you could know. I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands, I prayed for the day that I would get the chance. And just when I worked up the courage to try, Much to my surprise, You had somebody else. 'Cause these feelings, I keep to myself. I may never get to hold you, so tight. I may never get to kiss you, goodnight. I may never get to look deep in your eyes, Or so it seems. I always will be wishing you were mine, And think about what could be, all the time. All the happiness that I can find. Baby, a girl can dream. From the moment I wake up 'til I fall asleep, I imagine you're not with her, but with me. Talking and laughing, sharing our dreams, It's just a fantasy. 'Cause you had somebody else. 'Cause these feelings, I keep to myself. I may never get to hold you, so tight. I may never get to kiss you, goodnight. I may never get to look deep in your eyes, Or so it seems. I always will be wishing you were mine, And think about what could be, all the time. All the happiness that I could find. Baby, a girl can dream. A girl can dream, it's true, And to call you own, It's the sweetest dream I know. I may never get to hold you, so tight. I may never get to kiss you, goodnight. I may never get to look deep in your eyes, Or so it seems. I always will be wishing you were mine, And think about what could be, all the time. All the happiness that I can find.

Baby, a girl can dream. Oh, a girl can dream.

~*~*~*~*~ yes it's true. a gurl can dream. but a girl can only dream soooo much before she wants to make things reallll. i'm tired of waiting for love to fall in my lap. but at the same time i don't want to be out looking for love, i want it to find me, becuz i think maybe that love, the one that finds me, will be real. this is the influence of the tao here, but still, it seems to be the most logical way to find out if love is true or not...damn. i just need someone. but i won't settle for just anyone. many opportunities come and go, and i just get confused and shut myself out. and then no one knows what i'm feeling and everything just eventually falls into the sea, like the castles made of sand that jimi sang about.

Mary J Blige ~ The Love I Never Had

You know sometimes There come a time in your life When you love something You got to let it go And even though You might feel there's still something there You have to wake up Stop leaving in a dream Cause it's over now You got to think about you I have always wondered why Why I can't live without you babe And I'm longing to be your lady I understand that you are leaving Please don't live here without me baby Cause I think I might go insane Cause everybody needs someone to love And I know that it's true And I know that it's you I don't understand Why you can't be my man So I better wake up Stop living in a dream Yes I better wake up Cause I can't lose the love I never had Yeah I better wake up As painful as it seems Yes I better wake up I can not lose the love I never had Every time I close my eyes I see visions of you and I Sharing love of a special kind I got to laugh to keep from crying To hide all the pain inside Cause I can't get you off my mind Cause everybody needs someone to love And I know that it's true And I know that it's you I don't understand Why you can't be my man So I better wake up Stop living in a dream Yes I better wake up Cause I can't lose the love I never had Yeah I better wake up As painful as it seems Yes I better wake up I can not lose the love I never had Oh, it made me realize I don't want to live apart But you don't know how hard I tried What do I have to lose? Oh I think a little bit more than you And I doubt that you will see things Clearly before it's too late Cause everybody needs someone to love And I know that it's true And I know that it's you I don't understand Why you can't be my man So I better wake up Stop living in a dream Yes I better wake up Cause I can't lose the love I never had Yeah I better wake up As painful as it seems Yes I better wake up I can not lose the love I never had Never had, never had, never had Break it down, break it down Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh All the times I've cried It made me realize That I was holding on to a lie But you don't know how hard I tried To make sure you were satisfy yeah Cause I thought you were only mine And I doubt you will see things clearly Before it's too late, too late, too late I don't understand why you can't be my man Oh everybody needs somebody to love Everybody needs somebody yeah Oh, do do do…Baby, baby, baby I can't live with you And I doubt you will see things Clearly before it's too late, yeah Oh you hurt me so, you hurt me so Love that I that I never had I can't lose, I can't lose I can not lose, I can not lose Oh I can't lose a love I never had

~*~*~*~*~ was it just another love that i never had?? or was it really a love. it was a bond of some sort. we totally bonded together in many ways. it felt like love. but how can you love from afar? it's really difficult to do that. almost too difficult for some. like him. not me, i really tried. i tried so hard. i tried too hard it seems. he just never appreciated my efforts to keep us together because his head was off in space, dreaming of another place, where we could be together, at least i hope that's what the issue was. because he talked about that more than anything else. well almost. music always took up lines. it was so sweet, to have things written for me, about me, purposefully to make me smile and enjoy the day, knowing that someone loves me, even tho someone is far away. i miss you bai. remember what we had? dammn.

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