2003-01-02 - 6:10 p.m.

"The Taste Of Ink" ~ The Used

Is it worth it can you even hear me Standing with your spotlight on me Not enough to feed the hungry I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now In this sea of lonely The taste of ink is getting old It's four o' clock in the fucking morning Each day gets more and more like the last day Still I can see it coming While I'm standing in the river drowning This could be my chance to break out This could be my chance to say goodbye At last it's finally over Couldn't take this town much longer Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be Now I'm ready to be free So here I am it's in my hands And I'll savor every moment of this So here I am alive at last And I'll savor every moment of this And won't you think I'm pretty When I'm standing top the bright lit city And I'll take your hand and pick you up And keep you there to so you can see As long as you're alive and care I promise I will take you there And we'll drink and dance the night away As long as you're alive Here I am I promise I will take you there

~is it worth it can you even hear me? i'm so confused, i dont know what to do, my heart is in two and i'm in debt 10 dollars to my dealer and i've only got a five in my pocket. i'm almost out of my personal stash and when that goes so will my hopes of being able to sleep tonight. my holidays passed just like other days only family was everywhere. and it sucked because i am alone and i have no one to kiss underneath the mistletoe or when the ball dropped. it was just lonely and cold and boring and i was just wishing that my mom had finally realized that i didnt want anything material for xmas that i only wanted a tall skinny italian to love me with a bow wrapped around his penis and one pinned to his chest to be under my tree on the 25th, but that didnt happen and i got a whole bunch of stuff which i would so gladly give back if i could get my italian instead.

"Swing, Swing" ~ The All-American Rejects

Days swiftly come and go. I'm dreaming of him He's seeing other girls Emotions they stir The sun is gone. The nights are long And I am left while the tears fall. Did you think that I would cry, on the phone? Do you know what it feels like, being alone? I'll find someone new Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of My heart is crushed by a former love Can you help me find a way To carry on again. Wish cast into the sky I'm moving on Sweet beginnings do arise he knows I was wrong The notes are old, They bend, they fold and so do I to a new love. Bury me(you thought your problems were gone)Carry me (away. away, away...)

~well the old love is the emptiness that dwells inside my heart consuming my warm blood and filling me with cold corn syrup and ketchup instead. i am broke and lonely and bored and tired and hungover and sober and i've got this tickle in my throat that causes me to cough every five seconds and it won't go away and it's driving me insane. playstation cannot substitute for friends. i dont know why i keep doing the math it always adds up the same. me alone.

"Cold And Alone" ~MxPx

I know I'm mean but I'm real sorry I didn't mean to make you cry I feel so bad by then it's too late You're hurt, I'm mad, is this goodbye? I've dug down far too deep now I've dug down far I'm losing sleep You know it's hard you know I'm trying To understand to do what's right I don't like to see you crying I don't like it when we fight I've dug down far too deep now I've dug down deep I'm losing Cold and all alone Out there on your own Cold and all alone Living on your own

~ i know i'm mean but i'm not sorry. i'm cold and all alone and until that changes i'm gonna be mean. cuz i dont have anyone to love me the way i need right now and its hard to live life when there seems to be no reason to live. someone help?

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