2003-01-15 - 4:48 p.m.

"Meet You There" ~ Simple Plan

Now you're gone I wonder why you left me here I think about it on and on again I know you're never coming back But I hope that you can hear me I'm waiting to hear from you Until I do You're gone away I'm left alone A part of me is gone And I'm not moving on So wait for me I know the day will come I'll meet you there No matter where life takes me to I'll meet you there And even if I need you here I'll meet you there I wish I could have told you The words I kept inside But now I guess it's just to late So many things remind me of you I hope that you can hear me I miss you This is goodbye One last time And where I go you'll be there with me Forever you'll be right here with me I'll meet you there No matter where life takes me I'll meet you there and even if I need you I'll meet you there

~we never really said goodbye. we never had closure. sometimes i find myself hanging on to old memories of you and me and things we've said, and things we've done, and words we read, the way we loved. but now you're gone. there have been many times where i really needed you to just be there for me to tell me that everything was going to be okay and that someone really loved me and that someone was you. and then you met her. and i became invisible. and you never noticed how much you changed. and you didn't realize how much you meant to me. and you never realized how much you hurt me. i miss you...but i need to let go...

"Attics of My Life" ~ Grateful Dead

In the attics of my life Full of cloudy dreams unreal Full of tastes no tongue can know And lights no eye can see When there was no ear to hear You sang to me I have spent my life Seeking all that's still unsung Bent my ear to hear the tune And closed my eyes to see When there were no strings to play You played to me In the book of love's own dream Where all the print is blood Where all the pages are my days And all my lights grow old When I had no wings to fly You flew to me You flew to me In the secret space of dreams Where I dreaming lay amazed When the secrets all are told And the petals all unfold When there was no dream of mine You dreamed of me

~so thanks jace. even though you probably will never know how much you've meant to me and helped me through things without even being there. you're smile, you're voice, you're eyes, you're poise. you are beautiful, big nose and all. but i don't understand why i credit you so much, especially when you'll probably never know. after all you don't even know who i am. you might never know. and that scares me. i just want to say thanks. i will one day...

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