2003-01-17 - 1:34 p.m.

Back In My Life ~ Alice Deejay

Want you back in my lifeeeeeeee I want you back in my life Want you back by my side 'cause that's where you belong Oh and I I won't give you up I will never stop My love is much too strong I want you back in my life Want you back by my side 'cause that's where you belong Oh and I I won't give you up I will never stop My love is much too strong Look at me Standing here Crying out my final tears Look at me in the rain All that I won't name again Look at me Standing here Crying out my final tears Look at me in the rain All that I won't name again Remember when you told me You didn't want anybody else but me And I'm that same girl That's all you need to see I want you back in my life Want you back by my side 'cause that's where you belong Oh and I I won't give you up I will never stop My love is much too strong Look at me Standing here Crying out my final tears Look at me in the rain All that I won't name again

~ "it's weird talking to you. it's been so long." is this what we've come to? i miss you. i miss the way things used to be, when i was the focus of lust and love and emotion and everything. the words written, the thoughts shared, the laughs, the cries, the smiles, the sighs. i don't know who you are anymore, but you will always have a piece of my heart. i realized what love is through you and our talks. you've helped me a lot, yet hurt me a lot at the same time. i'm not the center of attention for you anymore and that kills me knowing you found someone you love and i'm just a good friend now. i'll always care for you. but i'm not going to sulk forever. i will find my one someday too.

Pinch Me ~ BareNaked Ladies

It's the perfect time of year Somewhere far away from here I feel fine enough I guess Considering everything's a mess There's a restaurant down the street Where hungry people like to eat I could walk but I'll just drive It's colder than it looks outside It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone Then you try to scream, but it only comes out as a yawn When you try to see the world beyond your front door Take your time, 'cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile When you realize that a guy my size might take a while Just try to figure out what all this is for It's the perfect time of day To throw all your cares away Put the sprinkler on the lawn And run through with my gym shorts on Take a drink right from the hose Change in to some drier clothes Climb the stairs up to my room And sleep away the afternoon It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone Then you try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn When you try to see the world beyond your front door Take your time, 'cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile When you realize that a guy my size might take a while Just try to figure out what all this is for Pinch me, pinch me 'cause I'm still asleep Please God tell me that I'm still asleep On an evening such as this It's hard to tell if I exist If I pack the car and leave this town Who'll notice that I'm not around? I could hide out under there I just made you say underwear I could leave, but I'll just stay All my stuff's here anyway It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone Then you try to scream, but it only comes out as a yawn When you try to see the world beyond your front door Take your time, cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile When you realize that a guy my size might take a while Just try to figure out what all this is for Try to figure out what all this is for Try to see the world beyond your front door Try to figure out what all this is for

~ i cannot believe that asshole tried to "tell me like it is". bullshit. he doesn't know me at all. and i regret that night and everything that ever happened between us. i do not hate a lot of people. but you are definately on my hate list. god wot a bastard you are. wot in god's name gives you the right to treat people the way you just treated me. if you died right now it wouldn't phase me because you were just a dick and i used you, just like you tried to use me. everything was going fine until you had the nerve to interrupt my conversation with my long lost friend that i just regained communication with. which by the way is a change for me. it's just awkward the way we can pick up our friendship where we left off like nothing even stopped. when i look in your eyes i see a future, and some love and emotion, and i don't want to feel that way. you're unaccessible to me. you might always be. we never got a chance. i thought you were the one. i loved you. oh my god i loved you...

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