2003-02-14 - 4:07 p.m.

Valentine ~ the Get Up Kids

it's words you forget to anniversary songs the bottles bite back your tolerance wrong your good intentions count for little anymore if you're sorry why wage war? i'm not fully convinced that there's something wrong with this could another point of view, baised and untrue, tear me away from you? will you be my valentine if i'm a world away? apologies are breaking me the constants aren't so constant anymore for two days i wait for calls to come through tonight for me translates to yesterday to you you bend and you wave when you're barely away i wish i could say tonight that when you bend and wave goodbye you'd take me with you

~ bend and wave and take me with you. why goodbye? i want to learn you. you draw my attention constantly. it's hard to think properly when you're around. and when you acknowledge me i get the fluttering feeling in my stomach. you're so damn cute. but then i open my eyes and see what's in front of me and it's scary because your so thin it scares me. you're tall, the perfect height for me to lean into. but your waist makes you look almost anorexic. i can't help but wonder if you have a problem. it scares me. i wish i could be there for you to help you through whatever it is that is making you look so unhealthy. cuz i just want to lay with you wrapped in a valour blanket and kiss you non-stop. you're so beautiful to me. i don't know why others don't see it. when i have trouble not thinking about you...

Going Away To College ~ Blink 182

Please take me by the hand It's so cold out tonight I'll put blankets on the bed I won't turn out the light Just don't forget to think about me and I won't forget you I'll write you once a week she said Why does it feel the same To fall in love or break it up And if young love is just a game Then I must have missed the kick off Don't depend on if she ever followed you or Anything but I'd go through hell for you And I haven't been this scared in a long time And I'm so unprepared So here's your valentine A bouquet of clumsy words A simple melody This world's an ugly place But you're so beautiful to me I think about the times She kissed me after class and She put up with my friends I acted like an ass I ditched my lecture, to watch the girls play soccer Is my picture still hanging in her locker? I haven't been this scared in a long time And I'm so unprepared So here's your valentine A bouquet of clumsy words A simple melody, this world's an ugly place But you're so beautiful

~ does everyone have some kind of story to tell like this. college? young love. twisted endings? a book of people playing with other people's emotions and half the time either not realizing or not caring. i don't know anyone in this world that hasn't been burned by someone. except for kids that is. but seriously. everyone deals with this shit. the breakups the makeups the jerry springer-esque twists that branch off through an entire group of friends. just to tear them apart in the end. half not talking to the other for some reason or another. i wish i could just for maybe one day, resolve any problems that have left people despising me. i'm sorry if you have the wrong impression of who i am or are just mad because i told you like it is but you deny to see your true self (which is most often the case)? forgive and forget. why waste energy hating? i need love.

Holiday ~ the Get Up Kids

what became of everyone i used to know? where did our respectable convictions go? your words dont' match the story that your actions show, but what do i know? i'm sure you can't help but remembering I thought that you'd be one not to forget, but remembering's not helping you yet say goodnight means goodbye i know you thought my life would stop with you away maybe I can see you on the holidays, but you're worlds away I've never forgotten all our yesterdays but i'm lucky if we're speaking on the holidays the evidence presents itself accusingly, your absence speaking everything you think of me now that I am faced with opportunity you're not remembering I'm not asking you anyway Even if you ever could cave in I wouldn't know where to begin

~ this song brings me back to you. all of our memories and the lingering feelings. i know they linger because i feel them whenever you come near. and i'm not just saying that because i feel it, i'm saying it because you feel it too. i know you do. everytime you look at me it registers. what if? do you ever wonder? right now we're living totally opposite lives, but the sight of you destroys every negative thoughts. if i see you soon. i wish i could see you everyday. remember when we used to talk everyday? those were the days. and because i'm alone today. i'm remembering endlessly.

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