2003-03-11 - 11:59 a.m.

"I don't need Dom Perignon, I don't need Cris Tanqueray and Alize, I don't need shit Nigga I'm high all the time, I smoke that good shit I stay high all the time, man I'm on some hood shit Give me some dro, purple haze, and some chocolate Give me a dutch and a lighter I'll spark shit And stay high all the time, I smoke that good shit I'm high all the time, man I'm on some hood shit"

~50 cent (so true)

World Of Pain ~ Eric Clapton

Outside my window is a tree. Outside my window is a tree. There only for me. And it stands in the gray of the city, No time for pity for the tree or me. There is a world of pain In the falling rain Around me. Is there a reason for today? Is there a reason for today? Do you remember? I can hear all the cries of the city, No time for pity for a growing tree. There is a world of pain In the falling rain Around me Outside my window is a tree. Outside my window is a tree. There only for me. And it stands in the gray of the city, No time for pity for the tree or me. There is a world of pain In the falling rain Around me

~ we go on with our lives while our country is involved in such a battle. There is going to be a war. The last time I lived through a war it was the Gulf war and I was too young to remember it. But I will remember this. I'm older now, I understand it to an extent. And I'm disgusted by it. Bush is fighting his father's leftover battle. Can't people just talk things out anymore? Find Saddam and capture his ass. The line him up in front of a fire squad and release all of the pain that has imprinted our world.

Take The Pain Away ~ The Ramones

I went out today for a walk in the rain I was so sad and blue I could feel any pain I was worried about everything my head began to howl I am running away from myself there's too many demons around here now Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away But that can't happen and everybody knows it's true And if you have to know I'll never understand you So if you have to go then you'd better go now Go off somewhere safe I hope you will somehow Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away

~ i wish there was a way for me to not feel this pain. this is the most sober i've been for a while, and all of the feeling is back. i don't know how people deal with pain without drugs. there are sharp strings of pain that just hit my stomach over and over again, while i'm at college, trying to learn. the pain is affecting my already bad focus. it hurts so much. damn being a woman. damn my ruptured disc in my lower six. it's acting up right now and i have nothing to take or smoke to make it so that i don't have to feel these awful pains. awful awful pains. maybe a coffee will help....i'm out...yet still in pain...

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