2003-03-20 - 11:29 a.m.

Bent ~ Matchbox Twenty

If I fall along the way Pick me up and dust me off And if I get too tired to make it Be my breath so I can walk If I need some other love Give me more than I can stand And when my smile gets old and faded Wait around I'll smile again Shouldn't be so complicated Just hold me and then Just hold me again Can you help me I'm bent I'm so scared that I'll never Get put back together You're breaking me in And this is how we will end With you and me bent If I couldn't sleep could you sleep Could you paint me better off Could you sympathize with my needs I know you think I need a lot I started out clean but I'm jaded Just phoning it in Just breaking the skin Can you help me I'm bent I'm so scared that I'll never Get put back together You're breaking me in And this is how we will end With you and me bent Start bending me It's never enough I feel all your pieces Start bending me Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in Shouldn't be so complicatedbJust touch me and then Just touch me again Can you help me I'm bent I'm so scared that I'll never Get put back together You're breaking me in And this is how we will end With you and me bent Can you help me I'm bent I'm so scared that I'll never Get put back together You're breaking me in And this is how we will end With you and me bent

~ all of this vital information is weighing on my shoulders like a beast of burden. i want this to end. i want it to end soon. all will be better once there is an end. and a settlement check. and a new life. a new world. and no more hiding. no more running. no more worries. because there will be nothing to worry about once this is complete. i hold the information in my mind. the information that is vital to put an end to the harrassment. an end to the evesdroppers. an end to the breach of privacy in my life. a win. a success. an end. soon. damn soon. please? i will call my lawyer and tell him everything i know. maybe it will be a breakthrough, the information that they've been waiting for to make their move. to settle this. to end it. to put money in my pocket and justice on the line.

Afterlife ~ Dream Theater

I touched with one who made me run away from my own soul...In this world with its many illusions We are moving like mice through a maze And now I find what's left behind has served to make me whole full of doubt, deception, and delusion seeking purpose to all earthly days I search within beneath a skin that bears both pleasure and pain In a world full of constant confusion I will not be a par to the craze In the Afterlife Will dark be bright? will cold be warm? will the day have no night? In the Afterlife? will the blind have sight? In the Afterlife. Behind closed eyes some comfort lies In knowing the truth never spoken Through this world with its hidden conclusion we'll keep moving like mice through a maze In the Afterlife will dark be bright? will cold be warm? will the day have no night? In the Afterlife? will the blind have sight? In the Afterlife. In the Afterlife will dark be bright? will cold be warm? will the day have no night? In the Afterlife? will the blind have sight? In the Afterlife.

~ we are at war. our country's safety is at stake. sometimes i find myself wondering if saddam is gonna drop some biological chemical death seeds on us, and we'll never see the light of day again. it will be the biggest tragedy in history. but it won't happen if we play our cards right. but with bush behind the hand, making the decisions, i worry. does he know how to play? this is the big time. the big guns. this is war. this is opinion startling. will this end the problem? we are supposed to learn from our mistakes. one mistake was world war II, pearl harbor, our great loss of life. we are supposed to learn from that. war is not the answer, yet it is where we are at. it's already started. it's scary. it's lonely. it's horrible to imagine the loved ones shedding blood on foreign soil. i'm opposed to this. but i'm not going to act on it. i don't run the country. but if i did, you can bet that there would be no wars like there are now. we are at war.

Like A Stone ~ Audioslave

On a cobweb afternoon In a room of emptiness By a freeway I confess I was lost in the pages Of a book full of death Reading how we'll die alone And if we're good we'll lay to rest Anywhere we want to go In your house I long to be Room by room patiently I'll wait for you there Like a stone I'll wait for you there Alone On my deathbed I will pray To the gods and the angels Like a pagan to anyone Who will take me to heaven To a place I recall I was there so long ago The sky was bruised The win was bled And there you led me on In your house I long to be Room by room patiently I'll wait for you there Like a stone I'll wait for you there Alone And on I read Until the day was gone And I sat in regret Of all the things I've done For all that I've blessed And all that I've wronged In dreams until my death I will wonder on In your house I long to be Room by room patiently I'll wait for you there Like a stone I'll wait for you there Alone

~ it seems as though i have been waiting for so long. where are you? i've been waiting here at your home forever. i am your home. come home to me. now. it's been too long. it's been so hard. i need some other love. i need some comfort. i need some advice. i need you and you are not there. please suprise me soon because i am lost and there is no light to guide me, no signs to point the way. please come home soon. i'm still waiting for you. whoever you may be. i am still waiting. and i am alone. and it is painful. please hurry. please...

My City of Ruins ~ Bruce Springsteen

There is a blood red circle on the cold dark ground and the rain is falling down The church door's blown open I can hear the organ's song, but the congregation's gone My city of ruins My city of ruins Now the sweet bells of mercy drift through the evening trees, young men on the corner like scattered leaves, the boarded up windows, the empty streets While my brother's down on his knees My city of ruins My city of ruins Come on, rise up! Come on, rise up! Come on, rise up! Come on, rise up! Come on, rise up! Come on, rise up! Now's there's tears on the pillow, darlin' where we slept and you took my heart when you left Without your sweet kiss my soul is lost, my friend Tell me how do I begin again? My city's in ruins My city's in ruins Now with these hands, with these hands, with these hands, I pray lord With these hands, with these hands, I pray for the strength, Lord With these hands, with these hands, I pray for the faith, Lord We pray for your love, Lord We pray for the lost, Lord We pray for this world, Lord We pray for the strength, Lord We pray for the strength, Lord Come on Come on Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up Come on, rise up

~ this one's for those whom our country is depending on at this very moment. please make a safe return home. we miss you. we hate the idea of war. well at least i do. i don't want to die. i don't want you to die. i want this to end. all of it. be safe. you're in my silent prayers.

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