2003-04-01 - 12:03 p.m.

"There will be a day of reckoning, what goes around will come around..." ~ My ever so wise grandpa.

So Much Trouble In The World ~ Bob Marley

So much trouble in the world now So much trouble in the world now Bless my eyes this morning JAH sun is on the rise once again The way earthly things are going Anything can happen You see men sailing on their ego trips Blast off on their spaceships Million miles from reality No care for you, no care for me So much trouble in the world now So much trouble in the world now All you've got to do is give a little Give a little, give a little One more time ye-a-h! ye-ah! So you think you have found the solution But it's just another illusion So before you check out your tide Don't leave another cornerstone standing there behind We have got to face the day, ooh we come what may We the street people talking, we the people struggling Now they are sitting on a time bomb Now I know the time has come What goes up must come down Goes around comes around So much trouble in the world So much trouble in the world So much trouble in the world There is so much trouble, there is so much trouble There is so much trouble There is so much trouble in the world There is so much trouble in the world

~ the man who was ahead of his time. there is so much trouble in the world. the war is just insane. the town i live in is a group of snotty inconsiderate fucks. and "there are only two things in this world that i hate ...inconsiderate people, and the dutch..." hahaha "take the fasia awaaay!" so i guess conor is started the trouble phase early. well not really. but my parents got a call from the cops about him and a couple of his friends making prank calls on this kid's mom's cell phone. i just laughed. my dad says he's following in my foot steps. he also says that he's suprised the cops called already for conor, he's fucking nine! marc and i didn't get into po-po trouble until we were teens. oh well. it was just a screwy thing. the kids made a mistake, they'll learn. just like at brynn's shower, cheri's oldest daughter picked up the pay phone and dialed 911 a couple times. so as we're about to leave the cops show up and no one was saying anything so i took control and sat the kids down and made them tell me what happened, and the i reprimanded them for their actions, just like a mom would. cept i'm not a mom. but somebody's gotta do the dirty work. i slammed my finger into mario's car door on saturday and now i have a pretty black and blue finger. my middle one too. i told my parents that i may not have a green thumb, but i do have a blue bird." anyways, my lame humor...i hope doug is okay. he's in my prayers. i hate to see kelly in such a mess. i hope she feel's better soon. i wish there was something i could do just to make her smile at least. but then again it's not really my place, however i still feel like i should.

Mandy Moore - Walk Me Home

Walk me home I don't wanna go all the way alone baby won't you walk with me home baby won't you take my hand come with me now to a special land baby won't you walk with me home 3 A.M. you're on my mind once again I must have been dreaming thought I felt your heartbeat just then and I wonder how it would be I was your lady and you were my friend I would put my heart in your hand and it would never end Baby won't you walk with me home (walk me home) I don't wanna go all the way alone (all alone) baby won't you walk with me me home baby won't you take my hand (take my hand) come with me now to a special land (ohh) baby won't you walk with me home Ohh La la la la la la la la I hold your picture next to my heart all the time ohh yea baby You're my dream come true so then you're mine? and I wonder how it would be if I was your lady and you were my friend I would put my heart in your hand and it would never end Walk me home I don't wanna go all the way alone baby won't you walk with me home baby won't you take my hand come with me now to a special land baby won't you walk with me home Everyday and night I wanna hold you understand I am going to love you in my own special way (in my own special way) Walk me home I don't wanna go all the way alone baby won't you walk with me home baby won't you take my hand come with me now to a special land baby won't you walk with me home Walk me home I don't wanna go all the way alone baby won't you walk with me home baby won't you take my hand come with me now to a special land baby won't you walk with me home Ohh won't you walk with me home?

~ dammit. i should've walked home with you that night. everytime i'm in ian's room (studio) and i'm singin', i see your picture on the wall and i can't stop my mind from travelling to thoughts of you and our past, the little thing it was. i wish there was more to us. when i see you and your eyes, i get the feeling that maybe there is. something is left in there for me. something in your heart. and i'll be around when you figure it out. if we come together again maybe it will be fate. maybe it will be a mistake. but either way, i'm ready and willing. but that doesn't mean that i'm obsessed, because i'm not. but when i see your face damn, i'm useless.

You've Got That Something ~ Robyn

You've got that something you've got that something look at me here I am I'm giving all of my lovin, everyday of my life to you all you see can be yours if you show me you love me, just one little hint will do and I know, I give to much and there is much that I sacrifice but I got all the reasons, when I look into your eyes I know I love you even though I shouldn't and you should know I've tried to stop But you've got that something something I can't describe, gives me that feeling gives me that freaky vibe you've got that something that makes me feel so fine makes it worth waiting, until the day that you will be mine (all mine) you decide to take your time I just want you to know that, I'll always be here for you my friends keep telling me: you've gotta let go they say I'm to good for you, maybe that is true but I just keep on, loving you the way I did before, and you should know I've tried to stop But you've got that something something I can't describe, gives me that feeling gives me that freaky vibe you've got that something that makes me feel so fine makes it worth waiting, until the day that you will be mine (all mine) But you've got that something something I can't describe, gives me that feeling gives me that freaky vibe you've got that something that makes me feel so fine makes it worth waiting, until the day that you will be mine (all mine)

~ whatever it is that keeps me coming back to you, it's there and it's alive and it's growing more each day. you've got that something. it's undeniable, undescribable, but addicting in every way shape form. i like you i think. never mind, i know.

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