2003-04-03 - 11:43 a.m.

Remember ~ Robyn

You You You still know the answers I used to know but I can't remember Inside of you the universe is so so beautiful Outside of me I forget I wish that I could skiv into your body and follow your bloodstream to your heart and just stay there and just stay there Don't you ever ever ever no let me out of your heart cuz I would never ever ever no Let you out of my heart In your eyes so many secrets in my mind So many questions I pray that you will find strength to hold on to who you are who you are why do we know we have to know to forget to remember why we came here why can't we just stay there just stay

there Don't you ever ever ever no let me out of your heart cuz I would never ever ever oh ah let you out of my heart Don't you ever ever ever no let me out of your heart cuz I would never ever ever oh ah let you out of my heart no

no let you out of my heart let you out of my heart don't you ever ever ever let me out of your heart out of your heart no no oh oh

~ okay so i am desperately trying to move on from what i know i can't have, even though i kinda crave it. shit on me man. i fucked it up a while back. but i still have you in my heart, and i think you just might always be there. i miss you. my ideas of true love have been broken and thrown out with the garbage on monday. i'm sorry marc. life is hard. this will be hard. i'm sorry alinka. i hope that you will be okay. if things are meant to be they will work out in the end. and who knows, maybe time apart will be an eye-opener to what is really around you. i wish you both the best.

Am I Wrong? ~ Brand New

Well I talk too much to myself And I turn my back on my faith It's like glass when we break I wish no one in my place (I wish, I wish) And I've seen You don't need their seeds when their dirt goes in deep and I'm lost in sleep I can't stay (can't stay) in this place (this place) I can't stand (when the room turns round) when the room turns round on my fate (my fate) You give no (give no) guarantees (there's no promise I can keep) There's no promise I can keep I can't stand I can't see my way I feel blind on my feet I can't stay too long Am I wrong? Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck I'm so tired of my mood And sleep comes with a knife, fork and a spoon You're so pale in your face You let life get in your way And I've seen (I've seen) You don't need their seeds when their dirt goes in deep (goes in deep) And I'm lost in sleep Am I wrong? Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck Goodbye, lay the blame on luck

~ so sometimes i just feel like shit. i've got these sad tunes playing in my ear and i totally feel them. the beating of my heart is all the evidence necessary. well i've got other things to conquer today. it's been a weird day. i'm getting my license back tomorrow. say goodbye to solitary and hello to freedom. which i will. when the time comes.

"sometimes what you think you know doesn't necessarily have much to do with reality..." ~ sam, life as a house.

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