2003-04-15 - 8:20 a.m.

Feeder - You're My Evergreen

The words we say, Old flowers fade away Remember yesterday, Wish it would bloom again Apathy and pain, Here comes the Autumn rain Old apologies scattered in the wings of fate Cause today it all looks black and white, Wish it would change We can't keep painting colours when its Don't hesitate, cause you will bleed A thousand tears won't wash it clean Don't hesitate cause you can free yourself Evergreen, Evergreen Down on my knees, Crawling though the streets again Surrendered to my needs, So I can breathe the air You're my evergreen, Regents Park in spring It takes me to a place, Where I can dream again Cause today it all looks black and white, Wish it would change We can't keep painting colours when it rains I just want some place where I can breathe without this bitter taste Cause today it all looks black and white, Wish it would change We can't keep painting colours when it's grey It all looks black and white today You're my evergreen, Regents Park in spring It takes me to a place, Where I can dream again Cause today it all looks black and white, Wish it would change We can't keep painting colours when it rains Evergreen, Evergreen, Evergreen

~ it's like i can't breathe without you. here i am again pouring my heart out to this when i know that it won't change a thing. you are still with her. the youngin. but yet so are you. i'm wise beyond my years in thanks to this disease. but i refuse to shed any tears since you and i can no longer be. today looks all black and white, but we can't keep painting colors when it rains, it will just wash it all away. and then we're back at where we started.

Mariah Carey - Long Ago

Once upon a time You whispered softly in my ear Loving words and fairytales That I longed to hear I gave you my body and soul And you took control As you slowly swept me up And carried me away You told me pretty lies As I held onto you tight You knew how to get your way Ignorance was bliss in your warm embrace Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me And take me back to yesterday Every now and then I drown in thoughts of yesterday And the fools' paradise that you blew away I feel you beside me again And remember when you came to my window On a dark and stormy day Baby, I need you now Tonight I'm crumbling down Sinking in the memories Shadows of you keep washing over me Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me And take me back to yesterday (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) (So long ago) Baby, I need you now 'Cause tonight I'm crumbling down Sinking in the memories Shadows of you keep washing over me Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me And take me back to yesterday Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me Long ago You used to want me Now it's all so far away But you still haunt me

~ to see you is painful. it brings my mind back to yesterday. brings the feelings back to stay. even though it will never be, my mind seems to go on without me. because when you look at me i see, how long ago you used to want me, and now it's all so far away, but everynight i rest to sleep you still haunt me. it's like i don't go to sleep to dream because i know you are all my closed eyes will see. its haunting me. everynight i pray for a change, but your still there in my dreams. behind everything you are there to haunt me.

Sting - You Still Touch Me

Another night finds me alone In my dreams You still touch me Your picture by my telephone In that smile You still thrill me Now if I sleep, I sleep here alone In my bed tonight You still haunt me And if I'm falling I'm falling like a stone In my nightmares You still hold me And after all that we've been through Now I'm wondering If you still blame me If only half of this was true That you believe of me You still shame me Dark rain will fall until I see your face I close my eyes I seem to hear the raindrops saying You won't come back You still touch me And when I'm sick at heart and low In my prayers You still heal me When I'm so sure this isn't so In my complacency You still shake me I wonder if you feel the same way as I do And you'd come back You still touch me Another night finds me alone In my bed tonight You still haunt me You still hold me You still touch me

~ i know that we can't be, but my mind refuses to let itself see. i know we can't be...now anyway. time may take us to another place in the future. but thats the future. and its useless to think about what could be. that makes me a daydreamer. i just want to be a believer. leave the daydreams behind and pay no attention to my "you" focused mind. i miss you. but everynight you come back to me. for the few seconds that it seems the few seconds that it may be, you come back to me, you haunt me, you hold me, you still touch me. last night we walked together, no importance to our destination apparantly because i can't remember it, but i put my arm around your waist, and you put your arm around me shoulders and pulled me close. damn this haunting subconscious....

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