2003-07-16 - 4:11 p.m.

A thousand Daydreams ~ Tony Lucca

a thousand daydreams call your name each one in a different way to me the sun don't set the same here without you one more day like a chest without its treasures wasted away, nothing left to do and if you knew the power of your pleasure you'd be there when i wake up when i reach for you a thousand daydreams set me free paintings of what we would do lazy days so silently just lying in this bed you i never felt this powerful emotion like some whirlwind i've come stumbling through spend my days just staring at this ocean staring right back at me, both of us so blue daydreams of you and every moment i might have you near me daydreams of you just to see my smile in your eyes this empty space beside me clearly made for two i think i see your face now on the pillow put there just for you a thousand daydreams scream your name so i'll just sleep my day away no fantasy could ever do the same guess i'll just miss you one more day.

~ so it's been a while. my crazy summer has consisted of long nights feeling good, tired eyes, and work. my dreams feel so real these days. sometimes i have trouble distinguishing reality from my subconsciousness. damn thats a long word. anyways....i feel like when i am asleep i am awake at the same time and then there are two of me. i have these almost outer body experiences while i'm sleeping. i feel like i am really there. and i love the randomness and the fact that anything can happen at any minute in my dreams and that they seem to last forever. i wish that faceless guy that is always on my arm will soon grow a face and i will find him. the dream guy hehehe...

More to Life ~ Stacie Orrico

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing And why can't I let it go There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every tempoary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm Tripping out thinking there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more Than wanting more I got the time and I'm wasting it slowly Here in this moment I'm half way out the door Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every tempoary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm Tripping out thinking there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more Than wanting more Than waiting on something other than this Why am I feeling' like there's something I missed Always... Always... There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm Tripping out thinking there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more Than wanting more There's gotta be more to life...Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm Tripping out thinking there must be more to life

Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more Than wanting more

~ seriously i have spent all my days finding ways to feel good. to get fucked up dammit. drinkin', smokin', all of it. it's been great. sure my body takes a toll but it's the summer of my sophmore year in college and i'm working 30 hours a week and i'm partyin' the rest of the time. but i'm supposed to! i'm in college and i'm havin' a good ol' time. i just hope kristina doesn't get sent away soon because i will be a lot lonelier.

When I Get There ~ Dream

Still trying to capture the moment I'm Livin' in it Still tryin to pry your heart open The sky's been my limit I've been wondering If you're ever gonna meet me Half way, Someday Will you ever make me happy Baby... When I get there I'm finally free When I get there I'm home When I get there I'll turn the key When I get there I'll know I don't know where I'm going But I'm going And I'll know it when I get there Can't wait another minute Cuz your heart just isn't in it And it's not fair When I get there I'm finally free When I get there I'm home When I get there I'll turn the key When I get there I'll know I see myself in a Cathedral All dressed in white There's someone who's willing and waiting To be there by my side Don't know where I'll find him But I'm sure I'm gonna find him Somewhere Out there I know he's gonna make me happy Baby I don't know how I'll make it So I guess I'll fake it til I'm somewhere I don't know where I'm going And I'll know it when I get there I've been thinking about our situation It's not what I want If you can't get What you're givin' You've got to be movin on But I've got no hard feelings Just my heart needs healin' takes time but I'll find another road then I will know (I will know) He's the one (He's the one) Sure as rain Sure as sun (sure as sun) Til the day (til the day) Hope is gone I will keep holding on I don't know how I'll make it So I guess I'll fake it til I'm somewhere I don't where I'm going And I'll know it when I get there I don't know how I'll make it So I guess I'll fake it til I'm somewhere I don't where I'm going And I'll know it when I get there I don't know how I'll make it So I guess I'll fake it til I'm somewhere I don't where I'm going And I'll know it when I get there

~ i don't know where i'm going but i'm on a path and the drive is nice and i'll know my destination as soon as i find it. just like i'll know my soul mate as soon as i meet him. my parents say that they fell in love at first sight. i want that. i'm actually jealous. i hope it's as nice as it was for them when it comes for me. love, that is. til then i'm just waitin', tryin' to capture the moment while i'm livin' in it...

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