2003-08-02 - 10:56 p.m.

You Get Me High ~ Jason Mraz

well i don't know just what i'm here for i want more than words can describe i've been deprived can you believe it my whole world well it's falling apart well it falls still it falls well it falls apart around me and you pick me back up oh, said you pick me back up oh, you're gonna pick me back up and you get me high said you pick me back up oh, said you pick me back up oh, you're gonna pick me back up and you get me high cause i'm drinking all of the tears you cry and i don't wish to know my ending i just say i wanna know when i begun i wanna know when i begun i wanna know where it started from where it all started from cause i feel like i am spinning i feel like i'm spinning i feel just like i'm spinning i'm spinning around said i feel like i am spinning all around the summer and the winter comes and another storm and it falls well it falls still it falls apart around me and you pick me back up oh, said you pick me back up oh, you're gonna pick me back up and you get me high oh my, my, my said you pick me back up oh, said you pick me back up oh, you're gonna pick me back up and you get me high i'm drinking all of the tears you crybreathing every breath that you sigh i'm drinking all of the that you cry that you cry all the tears that you cry breathing every breath that you sigh

~ this song is awesome. it's so catchy it stays in my head all the time and i don't care because i like it so much. oh ya gonna pick me back up and ya get me highhhh. thanks to my baby. he gets me high every day. and without him, i don't know where i would be. i can have a horrible day, i can feel like shit, but two hits from my baby and i'm back up again...and so the story goes. as it did tonight. i was supposed to chill with some people but the chill spot got switched three times and by the time i got outta work there were too many heads for me to go. so i'm home alone. about to jump into my new phase of obsession which happens to be six feet under. erik balfour hmmm. sexay. haha okay i'm done.

Do Without ~ Tony Lucca

tell me do i bring you down with my lack of inspiration and these questions that i throw around to assess my situation does it pain you to watch me crawl along the shore of my sea of doubt and could you care no less at all for all this drama you could do without do without do without i'm looking for light at the end of the tunnel and the smile that awaits me there taking myself off the cross that i no longer bear looking for light at the end of the tunnel knowing damn well i'll be free yes the light at the end of the tunnel shines on me shines on me now thought i was your piece of mind but you won't take this hand i lend at the right place at the wrong time and i could guess him cause i'm wrong again wrong again, wrong again i'm looking for light at the end of the tunnel and the smile that awaits me there taking myself off the cross that i no longer bear looking for light at the end of the tunnel knowing damn well i'll be free yes the light at the end of the tunnel shines on me i can see clear the open road out of the corner of my eye think its finally time to climb behind the wheel so i'm taking off the load of looking out for you and i gonna find out now exactly how you feel exactly how do you feel tell me how does it feel now (does it feel) does it pain you to watch me crawl along the shore of my sea of doubt i'm sure you care no less at all for all this drama you could do without do without do without i'm looking for light at the end of the tunnel and the smile that awaits me there taking myself off the cross that i no longer bear looking for light at the end of the tunnel knowing damn well i'll be free yes the light at the end of the tunnel light looking for light looking for light looking for light at the end of the tunnel gonna run so wild and free as the light of the end of the tunnel shines on me shines on me now (shines on me now) shines on me shines on me

~ tell me do i bring you down? does it pain you to watch me crawl along this shore of doubt? thought i was your piece of mind but you won't take this hand i lend at the right place at the wrong time and i could guess him cause i'm wrong again wrong again, wrong again....wow....tony has great words. so meaningful and i can totally relate to this one. i feel like such a burden sometimes. my mom is actually a burden to me right now. i know she means well and thats what makes it hard to tell her to just back off...wanting to know every single detail of my life. she thinks that there is this huge void of things that i just don't tell her but she is wrong. i tell her almost everything. well everything except things she disagrees with like drugs, sex, and my friends. most of whom she doesn't like too much. she thinks i run with a crew of delinquents and that all we do is find trouble. the last thing i want is to find trouble. sometimes i think she still thinks i'm like 9 and in need of all of this knowledge. but i'm not. i'm 19 and throughout my years i have learned a lot about life, a lot more than many people can imagine. things they don't discover til their in their 30's and 40's. but i know. just know that i know. i am heading down my own path and its certainly unclear sometimes, but the general direction is always there. i'm rambling and i love it.

The Remedy ~ Jason Mraz

I saw fireworks from the freeway and behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring now something on the surface it stings that something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous who says that you deserve this and what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old disease if you've got the poison I've got the remedy the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end. I won't worry my life away. I won't worry my life away. I heard two men talking on the radio in a cross fire kind of new reality show Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack they were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be right back after this the unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophe dance with me, because if you've got the poison, I've got the remedy the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison I say the comedy is that its serious. which is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end. I won't worry my life away. I won't worry my life away. When I fall in love I take my time There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why Because the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end. I won't worry my life away. I won't worry my life away. I won't and I won't and I won't....

~ you know what the remedy is right? maybe everyone has their own remedy. my remedy as of now is marijauna. but remedies can change. when i fall in love, my remedy will probably be that one who captures my heart. but for now, it's bud. yaaaaay. do you have jello? do you have jello? do you have jello? yaaaaaay. anyways. there was no motive in writing this tonight except boredom. so peace..

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