2003-09-11 - 10:23 a.m.

Are You Happy Now? ~ Michelle Branch

Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truths
and I don't care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left with an empty plate
And you don't care about it, yeah.
And I, I've given up this game
I'm leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care,
yeah, yeah yeah,

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?

Do you really have everything you want?
You can't ever give something you ain't got.
You can't run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you`re happy now, oohh oohhh
come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?

~ so last night i saw you briefly. We talked briefly. It was all just brief. But it wasn’t like ‘how was your day’ shit. It was serious. I like that. I wish you’d call me again like you used to. We could always just take off and go do something to get away for a little while. But it’s up to you. I want you to look forward to seeing me like you used to. Now it’s like same old news. I want to get some sort of emotional reaction out of you. Even if it is anger, anything will do. Just to know that you’re still alive in there. The guy I once new is in there somewhere. I can tell you’re not happy. Your expression gives it away. I wish that you could be content for a while. I wish you would let me help you be content. “I'm never gonna be good enough for you /Can't pretend that I'm alright /And you can't change me /Cuz we lost it all /Nothing lasts forever /I'm sorry I can't be perfect /Now it's just too late /And we can't go back /I'm sorry I can't be perfect…I'm never gonna be good enough for you /I can't stand another fight /And nothing's alright /Cuz we lost it all /Nothing lasts forever /I'm sorry I can't be perfect /Now it's just too late /And we can't go back /I'm sorry I can't be perfect /Nothing's gonna change the things that you said /Nothing's gonna make this right again /Please don't turn your back /I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you /But you don't understand…” (simple plan)


I Hate (Everything About You) ~ Three Days Grace

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet
every room-mate kept awake
by every silent scream we make
all the feelings that i get
but i still don't miss you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

every time we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

only when i stop to think about you,
i know
only when you stop to think about me,
do you know

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
you hate everything about me
why do you love me

i hate
you hate
i hate
you love me

i hate everything about you
why do i love you

~ I went to see my doctor today and i talked about you. i told him how if there were a way for me to not like you i wouldn't like you. but so far there isn't. everything keeps tying itself back to you. i go to work and i see "From Justin to Kelly" advertised everywhere. i just want a little while where you are off my mind. i'm so "twisted up in the game" that i need a break from it all. that's why i didn't chill last night. not like you cared anyway. you probably didn't think of me once. it's ironic isn't it. how i can't seem to get you off my mind but then you probably don't acknowledge me anymore. i was just a thing to get your mind off her. i don't like her. and not because she was your girl, but because she's shady. she instigates things and escalates situations until everyone wants to kill everyone else when in reality it all boils down to an accident that she turned around and said was intentional. i worry about you. i worry that she will bring you in the opposite direction that you are trying to go. she is young and immature and she needs time to grow up. yet so do you...

Here Without You ~ 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl (boy), there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl (boy) , there's only you and me

~ I am here without you baby. Trying to live in this whirlwind, trying to make something of myself, trying to be successful and content, but it’s hard. I hate being alone. I need a love in my life. A little romance to make things interesting and worth living. Some sort a of action to get me out of this funk. Anything…

Recent Sagittarius Horoscopes that moved me:
9/9/03 - Fight the drift. Embrace the thing that wants to slip away. Your mission remains clear and strong in ambiguous times. Other people's laughter or confusion will only inspire you to try harder.

9/10/03 - Now that your window is gone, you feel stuck. An honest effort may not be good enough. Stop wasting time and start saving your pennies. You may be frustrated, but you're not hopeless.

9/11/03 - You feel yourself getting lazy. Someone is slowing you down, but you can still take precautions. Even if troublesome guests leave you with a mess, at least they're leaving.

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