2003-09-25 - 5:26 p.m.

Friday, September 19: The thrill of escape outshines any future plans. Prepare yourself for the life that you'd rather be leading. Free fall might end in a new and thoroughly accidental commitment.
Saturday, September 20: Your partner expects a response. Now is the time to prove how great you really are. You were telling the truth about those special powers, weren't you?
Monday, September 22: The stars and in fact the universe in general, are doing you a big favor. Others insist on paying for what you can easily afford.For the next few days, there's no risk, only certainty.
Tuesday, September 23: If it works, don't tinker with it. The competition is long over, but the prizes keep rolling in. Move around the neighborhood to distribute your luck and creativity as widely as possible.
Thursday, September 25: Trainees rush in where specialists fear to tread. Find out who thinks that you're expendable and do the opposite of what that person wants. Survival is more about strategy than popularity.

Sarah McLachlan - Do What You Have To Do

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

~ sarah mclachlan is an awesome lyricist, this just being another example of her genius. I’m ever swiftly moving/ trying to escape this desire/ the yearning to be near you….deep within I’m shaken by the violence/ of only existing for you/ I know I can’t be with you/ I do what I have to do…and I have the sense to recognize but/ I don’t know how to let you go” could she be any more right in relation to my situation? i hear she might be pregnant by the new guy. I hope you don’t care about that. I hope you realize what you have in front of you before I find someone else to love me. I can’t wait forever, but for you I will wait for a long time. Our friendship is at its best right now, the sweetness, the emotion, the words, the communication, the affection, the caring, the feeling. I still get it when I’m with you. I still look forward to spending time with you. I like it best when we are alone, when no one is there to interrupt the connection the flies between us.

Summer Time ~ Beyonce Knowles

Out of all the guys that approach me
Walking up to me like they know me
You were the one that stood aside
Waited a while and took your time
You dont know how impressing
Your curiosity was to me
It was the fourth day of july
Looked in my eyes and saw that I

I wanted more than just a man
I needed a friend
Someone I could talk to
Someone who' really listen
When you touched my hand
The sun got brighter then
Trusting you I close my eyes
And felt our love begin

It was the summertime (when we fell in love)
It was the summertime (when heaven shined on us)
It was the summertime (baby there is nothing like the)
Summertime, summertime

Now it's been a year and we're closer
Fall in love again when I hold ya
I know that God set you aside
For me and now you are my prize
Wanna grow old with ya
Fill our house with your pictures
Have a son for you
A little girl for me
Together we're as a family

I wanted more than just a man
I needed a friend
Someone I could talk to
Someone who'd really listen
When you touched my hand
The sun got brighter then
Trusting you I close my eyes
And felt our love begin

It was the summertime (when we fell in love)
It was the summertime (when heaven shined on us)
It was the summertime (baby there is nothing like the)
Summertime, summertime

It was the summertime (when we fell in love)
It was the summertime (when heaven shined on us)
It was the summertime (baby there is nothing like the)
Summertime, summertime

~ ”I wanted more than just a man/ I needed a friend/ Someone I could talk to/ Someone who’d really listen…” I love that line. It’s very true in my perspective. I wasn’t looking for anything and you just came along. I don’t want a boyfriend, but at the same time I do. I just want you, and I’ll take you anyway that I can. I was walking across campus today and I saw this guy get a giddy look on his face and run up and lay a big wet kiss on this girl. It was so cute and for a second, if not more, I was jealous. I want a greeting like that dammit.

Luscious Jackson ~ Ladyfingers

Well I got ladyfingers baby
I got kidgloves
baby I got heart

If you need me to be sweet
then I can give you what you need
'cause I know you never came first baby
I'm so tired of my guns and my vanity
I'd like to trade them in for some sanity
and I know it didn't come too easy
It didn't come easy to me either
from the freezer to believer in love

Well I got ladyfingers baby
I got kidgloves
baby I got heart

Well I got ladyfingers baby
I got kidgloves
baby I got heart

I bet you didn't know that I could treat you right
that underneath the armor
there's another girl
she's standing with a suitcase
ready to run
in case you're wondering
why she's so quick to come and go
why she's so quick to come and go
she might be new, she might be old
she might be scared as hell
she might not be so bold
she might not be so bold

Well I got ladyfingers baby
I got kidgloves
baby I got heart

Well I got ladyfingers baby
I got kidgloves
baby I got heart

~ when jenn and michelle first played this song for me I thought she was singing “I got laid, it figures baby….” But she’s not. Anyway it’s a cool song. I like the lyrics obviously. “If you need me to be sweet/ then I can give you what you need/ cause’ I know you never came first baby/ I’m so tired of my guns and my vanity/ I’d like to trade them in for some sanity…” I am still in a whirlwind. My professor is taking attendance for my last class of the day right now. It’s a good thing I’m here because he doesn’t always take attendance. After this class I am done for the week, which means weekend! I love the weekend. I’m gonna just chill and relax with muh friends tonight. Maybe watch a movie or something and I’m definitely planning on trying out the new hot tub that’s sitting in my backyard and set at 96 degrees….hahahaha. I cannot wait for that. Maybe I’ll have some people come over and we’ll all go in. Well my class is starting right now so I gotta stop typing because it’s loud and he’ll notice.

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