2003-10-23 - 5:25 p.m.

Some recent horoscopes of mine:
Monday, October 20:Sagittarius obliterates unhappiness with a sweeping gesture. Forgive a debt to take the strain off a friendship. You'll get your due in good time and in a way that's agreeable to everyone.
Tuesday, October 21:Your mouth is running, but the stars are incredibly kind about it. A clueless individual makes an inspired guess. Collect your winnings and don't expect a repeat of this one-in-a-million chance.
Wednesday, October 22:Impulsive busybodies hamper the workings of an efficient team. Sagittarius can operate within the law and still flout every custom that people hold dear. Rein yourself in before you do any real damage.
Thursday, October 23: At last, you have the ear of someone that needs to hear you. Simplify the idea to make your point, but don't reduce the issue to absurdity. If this effort is successful, your words will be quoted for years to come.

Can't Trust Myself ~ Blaque
I didn't really wanna be on your team
I just wanna wear the uniform
that was enough for me
But somehow you stole the ball from my court
And you voiced a game one on one
that I didn't wanna play

I never had a guy to play the whole game
They always seem to quit at halftime
leave the rest to me
I never thought love should be that way
If you're down you should be down
until the buzzer rings

And I can't go back down that road again
Knowing that it is another dead end
Although I really wanna take this ride with you
I'm not sure what our destination is
and baby this is why

I can't trust myself
cuz everytime I get around you
I turn into someone else
I'm learning too much about you
You can't possibly
be this perfect, see why
Anytime I get around you
I can't trust myself
trust myself

When we are alone it drives me crazy
Cuz I hate the fact that I don't want your love
I find myself pushing you away
Then I turn around and I want you to stay
And I know it's kind of premature
But I just gotta be sure

And I can't go down that road again
Knowing that it is another dead end
Although I really wanna take this ride with you
I'm not sure what our destination is
and baby that is why

I can't trust myself
cuz everytime I get around you
I turn into someone else
I'm learning too much about you
You can't possibly
be this perfect, see why
Anytime I get around you
I can't trust myself
trust myself

Remember the time you looked into my eyes
I never wanna be with another guy
Everytime I think of how you make me feel
I know you're the one for me
I never had someone to treat me like you do
I pinch myself I can't believe it's true
You're the one, you set me free
I'm falling in love and it's killing me

I can't trust myself
cuz everytime I get around you
I turn into someone else
I'm learning too much about you
You can't possibly
be this perfect, see why
Anytime I get around you
I can't trust myself
trust myself

~ Every single time that I get around you I turn into someone else, and I just can’t trust myself. I want you so much. But at the same time I don’t. One minute I push you away and then I turn around and I want you to stay. You drive me crazy, being on my mind like this all the time. It’s affecting me to a whole new level. I don’t know how it got so out of control…a minute ago we were just friends. Now I can’t see you without me. Or me without you. I want to be able to be alone with you tonight. I just want to get in the car and go for a ride like we used to, just you and me, and we can have the radio on in the background, but mostly we’ll talk. Like we used to. And maybe I’ll have the guts to say what’s on my mind. Or at least we can talk about it a bit. I am feigning for you. Just what I need, another addiction. “By the way what’s your sign? I bet it is compatible with mine” ~ Mr. JT

Officially Missing You ~ Tamia
Hmm...
Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve heard it long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby
Safe to say that I-I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let no one through

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially

It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I’m officially missin’ you

~ you went away for a little while this week and even though you were gone nothing changed. You remained on my mind the whole time. I’m kind of getting sick of this. Thinking about you too much is not healthy for me. I’m craving something that I don’t think I can have. But I don’t know why I can’t have it because I know you’re down for giving it to me. So this weekend, when it gets to the point, let’s let it flow okay? I want to see where we can go. Because I’m not liking the current situation, you’re around but I’m missing you like crazy because you’re not with me. Exclusively.

Crazy ~ Barenaked Ladies
Climbing the walls of my mind is like climbing
on the jungle gym.
I am more than content with the
state of mind I am in.
'cause I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy just like you.

I don't need a rubber room, but that might be nice.
I'm not a manic depressive paranoid or schizophrenic
so I don't need your advice.
I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy just like you.

The lights are on but nobody's home
my elevator doesn't go to the top
I'm not playing with a full deck I've lost my marbles.
The lights are on but nobody's home
My elevator doesn't go to the top
I'm not playing with a full deck I've lost my marbles.

I'm a few bricks short of a load,
but a full load always hurt my back.
I flew over the cuckoo's nest and
I'm never ever coming back because
I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy.

~ I am crazy. But so are you. So don’t get mad at me when I call you ‘Crazy Boy’, because it does come out of my mouth once in a while, I’ll mutter it when I don’t know what else to say. Amy said that I was crazy that night she was drunk and in my face. She may not know me, but she’s right. There is so much about me that no one knows, not even you. All of the pain I’ve been through can be expressed through words but there is no way one can actually experience it without knowing it. And for me, it’s bad enough to the point where I would never want anyone to feel the way I did, and sometimes still do. I cannot begin to convey it. Well I’m being cut off…

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