2003-11-25 - 1:15 p.m.

Monday, November 24: The stars bring a rare quality of power. You have the lucky gifts of vision and action. Lesser beings recognize your sovereignty. Speak optimistic words with absolute certainty. Be prepared to get a taste of what it's like to be worshiped, or, at the very least, admired. You set an amazing example for others to follow, and it's only natural that you may begin to get a reputation as somewhat of a role model, model citizen or hero. Your human actions may burst your adoring fans' bubbles at some point down the road, but for now, everything you do and say is gold. You may not have set out to be this popular, but there's no turning away from it now.

Tuesday, November 25: You welcome all that accept the wisdom of your laws. Your hunger to see new places is matched by your ability to reach them. Enjoy these godlike feelings while you're privileged to experience them. The observations you make are truly unique. You have a special way of looking at a given set of circumstances and coming up with an incredibly new perspective on the various elements of it. This gift can take you places you've never even dreamed of going before. Having confidence in yourself and your abilities is extremely important. Once you learn to believe in yourself, you'll be able to see the amazing qualities that everyone else can. When that happens, nothing will be able to stop you from reaching your full potential!

Keep On Pushin’ ~ Calvin Richardson
Girl I’ve lied, please for give me
It’s been a few months since I’ve cheated
I don’t want to go on like this I want to put this in the past
I want to make this love last
Listen don’t keep on pushing me
If you do I just might fall over the edge baby (ohhhhh yeah)

Girl I’m trying I don’t want to waste
Your time no longer do I have a one-track mind
I know I broke your trust baby
But I love you too much baby
Listen don’t keep on pushing me
If you do I just might fall over the edge baby (mmmmmm)

Sometimes your anger is hard for me to bear
I just want, baby, take my hands and
Run my fingers through your hair
Listen don’t keep on pushing me
If you do I just might fall over the edge baby (oohhh yeah)

Will you pleaseeeeee

Hush baby don’t say a word
A nigga like me had to be first
Like I told you before I can’t take no more
Don’t push me, don’t push me no more

Cause I’m warning you I’m falling, falling, falling,
falling, falling ,falling, falling, falling out of love
falling out of love

Sometimes your anger is hard for me to bear
I just want baby to take my hands and
Run my fingers through your hair
Listen don’t keep on pushing
I just might fall over the edge
Said I just might do it

Cause I’m warning you I’m falling, falling, falling
Falling, falling, falling, falling, falling out of love
Falling our of love

~ I’m tired of the emotional rollercoaster that you have sent me on. Up and down, up and down, and now down, I’m falling out of love. “sometimes your anger is hard for me to bear/I just want baby, to take my hands and/run my fingers through your hair/listen don’t keep on pushing/I just might fall over the edge…” how ironically relatable. I just need a fresh break. A new guy. One who can return all of the love I have inside of me. Relationships and couples are everywhere I look. I feel lonely and lost. I just want to be found by someone. I think I deserve a good guy for once. Someone to get the old someone off of my mind because guess what?? He’s still lingering there, swinging on the nerves in my brain like tarzan or george of the jungle. It’s so nice to have marc home even if it is only for a few days. I can’t wait to just kick back and chill with him on Thursday. Thanksgiving should be straight. The phaneuf side is coming over for the big dinner, and then the Donahue crew is coming over for dessert. So then the whole crew will be there. My mom invited just, tim, and carl over but I’m uninviting just. Ha. Bitch. I can act like I don’t care. I’m a great actress. Just wait.

So Emotional ~ Carl Thomas feat. Faith Evans

Uh, oh, oh yeah
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh yeah
(Emotional)

I always dreamed that everything would be okay
With me and you, but I was wrong
When I looked into your eyes
I didn't see all the things I used to see
What's going on?

You gave me reason to believe that
We were always meant to be
But now I see, you were wrong
You can't keep running back to me
With all those "Baby, baby please"-s
No more, no more

Never imagined
You would be a painted picture
I'm emotional
You saw me leaving
No deceiving, it's official
I'm emotional

I can't forget that night I saw you in the corner
Wrapped up tight, you were wrong ooh
Slow dancing on the floor
While I was watching from the door
So hurt, there you were

I always dreamed that everything would be okay
With me and you, but I was wrong
When I looked into your eyes
I didn't see all the things I used to see
What's going on?

Never imagined
You would be a painted picture
I'm emotional
You saw me leaving
No deceiving, it's official
I'm emotional

You had your chance
But you through it all away
Thought you had my love always
Oh baby, I don't understand
Why you think that we could stay in total unhappiness

~ I just don’t want to know who it is. But at the same time I feel like I need to know. I just want some fucking closure. Is that too much to ask? Fuck you that’s not enough to ask. I deserve some explanation don’t I? Jesus I am tired of all of this analyzing and wondering, the not knowing, the thought of losing something that I hold dear to me. I hate this position. I was in this position with sara. No one at home knows about sara. But flan and makenzi do. No one knows the relationship sara and I had. It was one of the best friendships I’ve ever had. I still don’t know what happened. She forced us to part ways. And I lost my best friend. And now that is what’s happening with just. Everyone thinks that all I care about is the ass and blah blah blah but no one besides he and I understand the bond and the friendship, the foundation behind it all. There’s a connection there that I haven’t felt in ages and now I am being forced to say goodbye to it before I even get the chance to embrace it.

“Let me be the one to give you everything. (Boy I wanna be the one).
Let me be the one that's always in your dreams. (Always be in your dreams).
Let me be the one who'd be right by your side. (I'll be there, I'll be there).
Let me be the one, (Let me be the one), let me be the one.
Let me be the one...”
Let Me Be the 1 ~ Mary J. Blige featuring 50 cent
I can be the one…

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