2003-12-02 - 9:51 a.m.

Saturday, November 29: Excitement feels like your natural state. Mystery attracts you with the certainty that you're going to love whatever is inside that box. Salute all gift-givers, whether or not their gifts were intentional.

Sunday, November 30: For some people, the good old days are still here.Sagittarius looks restlessly toward the future. There's a lot to do between here and there and you'll trip over most of it if you're not careful.

Monday, December 1: Sagittarius' issues of self-improvement don't belong on the table today. Believe it or not, bigger things are happening. If you're unable to be a part of them, try not to stand in their way.

Tuesday, December 2: Put your trust where it always belonged. Most people are ready to forgive the error of your ways. Apologies and compliments are simple and matter-of-fact. With any luck, your foolish period is over.


Rest In Pieces ~ Saliva
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

~ So I stumbled upon this song through my father. His band is in the process of learning it so they can incorporate it into their sets. Seriously, lyrically, what a fucking great song. This weekend was….full of fun, good times, old faces, new faces, pleasure, alcohol and cheeba. I partied this entire week, every fucking night. My body is so tired. I can’t help but sleep in until like 4pm on my days off from school. It’s nuts, every night I’ll plan to get up and then I just never do. And I don’t even realize how quickly the hours pass by because I’m sleeping. Anyways, Friday night almost put a damper on my weekend because I brought Justin and Tim over at like 3:30am and the parentals were mad because the car is supposed to be home by 2am. But I picked up Carl from work at 2:30am cuz he didn’t have a ride. So the guys got all scared of going to my house….pshh. Saturday, Conor had a sleepover party at his friends house, and Marc was having friends over the house. So my parents went out to eat and then down to the casino. There were like 25 guys and just me. So I called up Chelle and she and Magoo came over for a bit before we re-upped and then we headed out to a Southington party. It was actually this girl Stephanie’s friend Sabrina’s grandparents’ house. But I’ve met Sabrina before so it was chill. Jewish, Justin, and Tim were already there. So we chilled there til like 4am and then went back to the guys’ apartment where we hopped in Tim’s car, (me, Tim and Justin), and drove back to my house. By this time I was pretty intoxicated. The guys filled their stomachs with food, and then Tim went outside and made a phone call. Justin and I were feeling each other, so he stayed behind when Tim left. We chilled for at least another hour and a half before I sent him walking. Apparently he got scooped by Marguee for public intoxication and he brought Justin to the station where he slept in a cell til like 11am. So much happened I’m not nearly done hehe….

If ~ Janet Jackson
Sittin' over here
Starin' in your face
With lust in my eyes
Sure don't give a damn and
You don't know
That I've been dreamin of ya in
My fantasy
Never once you looked at me
Don't even realize that I'm
Wantin' you
To fulfill my needs
Think what you want
Let you mind free
Run free to a place that no one
Dares to
How many nights I've laid in bed
Excited over you
I've closed my eyes and thought of us
A hundred different ways
I've gotten there so many times
I wonder how 'bout you
Day and night, night and day
All I've got to say is

If I was your girl
Oh the things I'd do to you
I'd make you call out my name
I'd ask who it belongs to
If I was your woman
The things I'd do to you
But I'm not, so I can't
Then I won't, but,
If I was your girl

Allow me some time to play with your mind
And you'll get there again and again
Close your eyes and imagine my
Body undressed
Take your time, we've got all night
You on the rise as you're touchin'
My thighs
And let me know what you like
If you like, I'll go down
Da down down down da down down
I'll hold you in my hand and baby
Your smooth and shiny feels good
Against my lips sugar
I want you so bad I can taste your
love right now, baby
Day and night, night and day
All I've got to say is

If I was your girl
Oh the things I'd do to you
I'd make you call out my name
I'd ask who it belongs to
If I was your woman
The things I'd do to you
But I'm not, so I can't
Then I won't, but,
If I was your girl

If I was your girl
Oh the things I'd do to you
I'd make you call out my name
I'd ask who it belongs to
If I was your woman
The things I'd do to you
But I'm not, so I can't
Then I won't, but,
If I was your girl

~ So I have no idea where we stand but things are definitely straight between us. We were able to talk about Saturday night with no problem yesterday. Which reminds me, yesterday was interesting. Michelle picked me up and we went around the res. Then we went to hard hittin’ new Britain and I cashed my check and we met up with eric, then scooped Justin and we hit the res again with an L. then on the way to my work craziness occurred. We approached the light next to G.E. and Justin says “pile-up”, and I said, “Chelle you gotta go around that car” cuz there was a car with flashers on pulled over, half in our lane, half not. Well chelle was trying to go around the car but there were cars going by in the lane next to ours and she thought she had room but she didn’t and she scraped the car with the flashers all the way by it, then she pulled over and was silent. The cops ended up coming and she got a ticket for the accident and a ticket for driving w/out a license. So while we’re waiting for the cop to fill out the reports we were pulled over with the flashers on and once Marquee said we could go, the car wouldn’t start. SO then, he told us he’d push us into the parking lot, and since chelle and Justin don’t have a license I had to take over driving. It was just nuts hehe. So then I got out and walked to work in the freezing wind, cuz I was already late. So “if I was your girl oh the things I’d do to you, I’m make you call out my name I’d ask who it belongs to If I was your woman The things I’d do to you but I’m not so I can(‘t) Then I won’t (will), but if I was your girl”…I will do them, all in due time. I got you coming back for more, and that’s enough to satisfy me right now. MmmHmm.

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