2003-12-04 - 10:31 a.m.

Wednesday, December 3: Someone out there needs your support. An untapped pool of talent could be generating a profit. You're as practical as you are romantic. Sagittarians of all ages and abilities feel young, strong and ready.
Thursday, December 4: Old-timers fill up with pride of place. Newcomers feel as if they've been here forever. The stars generate a homelike environment for all fire signs. You're free to move, explore and satisfy your senses. Being childlike isn't exactly the same thing as acting immature. If you know the difference, you can have a lot of fun without irritating the people around you. Get out your old board games, dolls or toys from when you were little and revisit the past. Allowing yourself to be silly reminds you to take life less seriously, and if it helps you forget your troubles for a few hours, it will have been worth it. As an added bonus, your silly mood might make someone else smile, too.

Aaliyah - If Your Girl Only Knew

If your girl only knew That you was trying to get with me
(what would she do)
If your girl only knew
That you was dissin' her to talk to me
She would probably leave you alone
She would probably curse you out and
unplug her phone
I bet she'd be glad that you was gone
And then she wouldn't have to worry
If your girl only knew
That I would want to kick it with you (if she knew)
And if your girl could only see How you be calling me,
getting fresh with me
She would probably leave you alone
She would probably curse you out
and unplug her phone
I bet she'd be glad that he was gone
And then she wouldn't have to worry
She's crazy to put up with you
Oh boy I won't be no fool
Let you like what you see
It ain't easy to get with me
But it's dumb to put up with you
I won't be no fool
Let you like what you see
It ain't easy to get with me
She would probably leave you alone
She would probably curse you out
and unplug her phone
I bet she'd be glad that you was gone
And then she wouldn't have to worry
She would probably leave you alone
She would probably leave you alone
She would probably curse you out
and unplug her phone
I bet she'd be glad that you was gone
And then she wouldn't have to worry
She would probably leave you alone
If your girl only knew
(what you saying, what you saying,
what you saying, huh?)

~ So she ain’t your girl. Yet neither am I. You sit back and let opportunity knock on the door and you just pretend you’re not home. And I know you care. I know it. I know you enough to know that much is true. If it wasn’t you wouldn’t let me know. You wouldn’t tell me. But I know what you think I know. Everyone knows. And everyone is disgusted. How could you do that to your friend? I mean it’s like you’re a fucking nymphomaniac. And if you are, then come to me when you need it. I mean don’t just sit back and let the time dissipate into thin air like it never existed in the first place. I still cannot comprehend these feelings of mine. I don’t know what they mean, or how they developed. But they’re there and I can’t really ignore them. I like you too much for my own good.

“You think that I don't know what's going on
Cause you're always home alone
And I'm always out of town
You need to stop trying to play me
Cause you can't even fade me
I know you're messing around baby” ~ 112 (It’s Over Now)

What Is It That I Search 4
I know not what I search 4
But I know I have yet 2 find it,
Because it is invisible 2 the eye
My heart must search 4 it blinded.

And if by chance I find it,
Will I know my mission is achieved?
Can one come 2 conclusions,
Before the question is conceived?

Just as no one knows
what lies beyond the shore,
I will never find the answer 2
what it is that I search 4.
- a poem by Tupac Shakur

~ I know not what I search for, I love this poem. It’s true. Life is just one big fucking mystery. “Life is just a pausing step on a path to something bigger” (RIP Billy). I want answers. Answers that I’ll probably never ever receive. But yet I still yearn for them. I wish Pac was still alive. I wonder if he is. He might be. Because like I said before, Life is just one big fucking mystery.

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