2004-03-30 - 12:53 a.m.

When It Hurts So Bad ~ Lauryn Hill

When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?

I loved real, real hard once
But the love wasn't returned
Found out the man I'd die for
He wasn't even concerned
I tried, and I tried, and I tried
To keep him in my life
I cried, and I cried, and I cried
But I couldn't make it right
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love,
Then you'd understand

What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it,
If you don't catch it,
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
If you just let it

See, I thought this feeling
It was all that I had
But how could this be love
And make me feel so bad?
Gave up my power,
I existed for you
But whoever knew the voodoo you'd do?
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love you'd understand
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
If you just let it

When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad

When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad

~ why does it hurt so bad to maintain something that feels so good? i understand that without pain there would be no pleasure, no love, but is there supposed to be this much hurt? i feel so consumed with it right now. the hurt hits me in the face everytime i see you. i wish i never called back last night. i just hope that i am not being fucked over again. i will not lose another friend over this guy. i won't gain any either. he knows how to hurt me. he does it so well. he doesn't even have to lay a finger on me. he doesn't even have to open his mouth. either way, i manage to maintain, still sinking deeper in this hurt with every new day. i want to hate you so much. but i just can't bring myself to. i'm not sure the good overweighs the bad this time though. and i just give and give and give. and i get nothing in return. tears threaten to fall from my eyes, but crying over you has proved to be a waste of time. tomorrow i might try something new...or should i say someone new. maybe i will forget about the unwanting, undeserving, hurtful one. i can only hope, and hope is thin...

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